Hard days...

Brynlee,
I've been so strong for almost 8 weeks now, but the past few days have really gotten the best of me.  They really stunk actually.  I miss you dearly.  Not long ago, I could keep my composure if I felt a tug on my heart, but lately it's been so hard.  Everything reminds me of you.  I think about you constantly, which compromises my ability to remember other things.  Just the other day, your brother Logan and I were going to run errands and I went back in the house to get something I forgot FIVE times... and I still forgot something, but decided our neighbors would start to seriously worry about me if I drove by one more time.  But you know what?  I'm happy to focus all my thoughts on you... for now anyways.  I feel too vulnerable when I leave the comfort and security of our home.  I never know who I'll run into, what looks I'll get, what feelings I'll have...etc. etc. etc.  Today I watched our video from in the hospital again.  What I'd give to just be able to hold your body again, or feel you wiggle around inside of me.  Even though I know time will heal the sorrow some, I don't want the memories of our time together to fade as well.
Anyway, your brother just woke up from him nap.  We love you!!

Mom