Nothing new...just miss you like crazy

My sweet Brynlee,
Before going to bed tonight, I just need to be with you.  I need to tell you again that I love you.  That I'm so sad you're gone - so sad I can't hold you in my arms....so sad I can't change the outcome.  I just miss you like crazy right now... I hate that I'll never see you grow up or experience life.  Tonight I attended a Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope dinner outing and found it great to share you with others.  I felt empowered and supported while I was there, but now after arriving home, I just miss you so much.  I thought about how I got to know you while you were still inside of me.  How I got to know your little personality.  How much I loved you then, even before seeing your beautiful face.  One really profound thing that was said tonight has stuck with me.  Someone said "the old me has died with my baby", and I don't think that could be more true.  I am a different person than I was before I was blessed to know you both physically and emotionally.  You've turned my life upside down, but I wouldn't trade the opportunity I got to know you and love you for anything in this world. 
Be strong baby.  Until we meet again...
Momma